I have been meaning to get back to blogging
for a while now. I even put reminders into my phone! I have thought of what to
write over and over again. Yet I just couldn’t get it together. I use the
excuse that life has been busy, but that’s just silly. Life is ALWAYS busy! I’d
be worried if it wasn’t. So why am I so slack? I don’t really know. But it’s
not just in the blogging sphere. I get lazy with soooooo many things.
At the end of my shift each day I get this
wonderful feeling of excitement that I’m going to go home and do so much;
scrapping, quilting, writing, errands, exercise – you name it, I intend to do
it. But somewhere along the 12km drive (yes! Only 12km) from work to home I
lose my excitement and by the time the key turns in the door I’m done. All I
can muster the enthusiasm for is to make a cup of tea and sit on the sofa with
a good book or surfing the internet. Then I spend an unmentionable amount of
time wildly pinning things to my Pinterest boards and stalking my favourite
bloggers for ‘inspiration’.
So here I am. Finally sitting down to
write… and where am I doing this? Where has the inspiration finally struck and
willingness evolved? In a doctor’s waiting room, of all places. It’s rather
bleak in here actually, so I don’t know what’s excited me... Actually, why is
that? Why are doctors’ waiting rooms always so blergh? It’s the same generic
décor – old 90’s office chairs with faded watercolour oil paintings on the
wall. Or if you’re really lucky, it’ll be cane furniture and artificial flowers
that look like they’ve come off the set of the Golden Girls. Anyway, I digress… I very much doubt you want to sit
and read about my thoughts on doctors’ waiting rooms, back to the point at
hand.
As with previous years, this year I did not
set myself any new year’s resolutions. Instead, I set myself some personal
goals and aspirations – regularly blogging was indeed one of them, clearly I’ve
excelled at that, ha! These were goals for all areas of my life. Personal,
health, career, hobbies, social – everything. But here we are, half way through
the year and what have I ticked off that list? Very little. Which sucks. It
sucks big time. For me, the less I achieve in something, the less I have
enthusiasm. Some people have the all or nothing attitude for winning and
getting the job done. I on the other hand have the all or nothing attitude for
losing. As in “I’ve stuffed up this much, I may as well just pack it all in”.
This is something I’ve struggled with from the very beginning of my existence.
Try as I might to keep positive and focused, it just doesn’t happen…
But now I am facing three lovely weeks of
holidays, with no set plans and no set commitments. Exciting right? You
betcha!!! Now is the time I’m going to cross off those goals on my list,
starting with this little ol’ blog. So here’s to another new start and reaching
my potential.
H x
Ps This was posted after my appointment... clearly I wasn't at the GP at 10:30pm on a Sunday night!
Pps Just so you know that I haven’t been
completely useless the past 2yrs, here are a few scrap pages to enjoy!
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